Sleep well, little one

She was hit by a car yesterday, 9th of may 2011.

I can't believe this. I'm so sad. and Confused. And angry to myself and everyone.

I was asleep, it was very early in the morning, my mum woke up before me and let our three dogs out to our fenced yard.

They weren't out for a long, my mum dressed up and went to the kitchen to take the dog's food bowls on the table, then she went to call Famu, Kex and Oma to come inside to eat.

Oma didn't come. Mum went out and looked from every corner of the yard, checking if she was just hiding somewhere.

When she didn't find her, she came inside and yelled me to wake up come looking for her, which I did. I just put trousers on my nightwear and shoes on and ran looking for her, I took our other dog, Famu with me in hopes on her guiding me to Oma, but she didn't, she was just happy to get out with me.

I went to look her from the woods and my mum looked from the street. I didn't get far when mum came back, carrying Oma. She yelled to me "I found her! She's dead"

I went hysterics, I just screamed "NO SHE ISN'T NO SHE ISN'T NO SHE ISN'T!!!"

Mum layed oma on the ground next to our house and said "Don't come look." Her hands were shaking badly, I sat on the grass and weeped and weeped and weeped.

Im crying again, and shaking. I feel so bad... I want her back... why did this have to happen??

The car didn't even stop to see what happened.

I just.. wish that someone had stopped... I wish I had plugged the tiny hole in the fence better... I wish Oma would have gone to the woods and not to the road... I wish my mum had woken up 10 minutes earlier like she usually does, then maybe she would have gone to the road earlier that that earlier car had ducked her... I wish I would have been up earlier so I could have given her the last morning kiss and petting...

It just isn't fair... she was just 8 months old!

I want her back....

Just give her back.....